My grandpa

My grandpa passed away today. And that makes me sad for me, and for his kids (like my dad) who are having to deal with that loss. But really, all I can think about is how much he has told everyone that he just wanted to go be with my grandma. And I don't know how long it takes to get past that whole St. Peter/gates of heaven thing? But I've got to believe that they are hanging out right now and they are thrilled to see each other. My grandma's had her hands full being guardian angel to all of their kids and grandkids and great-grandkids, and I bet she's glad to have a hand with all of that.

I had a dream last week that I was at their house, and I saw her wandering around and I knew that it was a ghost, so I asked her why she was there. She told me that she was just checking up on everyone, and that I was just fine. Now, I'm thinking she was just coming to get grandpa. But obviously, you can't go around telling kids that, even in their dreams. That's creepy.

Anyway, I hope this doesn't come off as callous, or like I don't care. That is not the case. But it is the way I am choosing to see it.

Um, what?

Did anyone else realize that it's totally November right now? WTF? Where have I been? Time for bed, yo. I just did not see that coming.

SOTD: November Rain by GnR. Supposedly, we're finally going to get a new cd from them. I'll believe it when I see it.

BABY GIRL!!!!!!

Big fat congrats to Jenn and Zack who have a baby girl! I can't wait to meet Ms. Layla Mae.

SOTD: Baby Mine by Alison Krauss. (Also, HIMYM fans, the video says "Canada Day". What up Robin Sparkles!)

Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist

I saw this movie yesterday, and OH MY GOD. High school me would have been OBSESSED with this movie. It's got all kinds of awesome music and stuff, and Michael Cera. And I love that kid, if only he didn't make me feel like a cougar...

So yeah. Go see it now that it's cold and shitty and stuff outside.

XOXO,

Rachel

SOTD is from the soundtrack- Baby, You're My Light by Richard Hawley.

PS- I don't know if this is getting the kind of national coverage that it is here, but if I were Jennifer Hudson, I'm not sure I'd ever be able to get out of bed again. Or survive. Go hug your loved ones.

#17- "Ok is better than No Way"

I had a match date last night, and I'm going to go ahead and claim that I've accomplished #17 on the list and had a blind date. Since my waitress was asking me if it was a blind date when he went to the bathroom, it totally counts.

And like I told a lot of people, it was okay. And my very wise sister said, "Ok is better than no way." He was very nice, and he was funny and he laughed at my jokes. He also looked exactly like his picture, which is nice. I've totally been a victim of the bait and switch before, so he totally earns points for that.

And we'll see. It could go either way, and that's fine. And that's all I'm going to say about it, because it feels weird to be talking about it, but I realized I haven't crossed anything off of my list in awhile.

What should I do next? Does anyone have a stick shift car they can bring to Chicago and teach me to drive it?

SOTD: First Date by Blink-182. Because it makes me laugh and it's close to being topical-ish.

D-bags.

Dear Douche Bag who thought it was necessary to email me two weeks after our last interaction on match to tell me that you weren't interested,

Really? You should probably take a second to get over yourself. I will now spend the next 30 seconds mocking your sorry ass in my brain ...and, I'm done.

XOXO,

Rachel

Also, I've been having dreams about going on dates with jerks all week. Last night it was a guy who forgot to take off his wedding ring. The night before, the dude had the nastiest teeth I've ever seen. I think my brain is reminding me to hold on to my rule of low expectations. (For those of you who don't know, the rule is that if you go in with low expectations, it's hard to be disappointed. Also, you may have noticed how long I've been single.)

SOTD: Dickhead by Kate Nash. Two other links: When I typed dickhead into the you tube search, this popped up and it makes me happy. Also, this website Reasons Why I Dumped You cracks me up. Over eager penis pic emailer is my favorite.

Overheard at recess...

Yesterday, it decided to rain for the 20 mins. in the afternoon when I have recess, so as soon as we got to the playground, we had to turn that train around.

Me: Rain, rain, go away. Come again some other day.

O (my little 4-year-old friend): Ms. K, that doesn't make any sense at all.

Me: Why is that?

O: I hate the rain. It ruins everything. I say rain, rain, stay gone forever.

Me: Point taken, Mr. O.

I just really like his logic. Rain is a bummer.

SOTD: Ok, so my big sister gets two b-day SOTD's because she's awesome. (And I didn't send her anything yet, even though I gave her husband an STD for his b-day...I sometimes suck as a sister.) So, like I said, I was at a wedding this weekend and with all the travel, I made myself a few new playlists on the ol' iPod, and I found this song that I'd forgotten about. The first time I heard it, I immediately thought of Sarah and Tim...don't know if it's the line about a life less sedentary or the toddler with a complex toy, but it sort of makes me think of their schmoopy love story. I see how happy they are, and it makes me happy. And reminds me to keep my standards high. So here it is- A Life Less Ordinary by Carbon Leaf. Go get schmoopy with it. Happy b-day again, Sarah.